Since moving at the end of August, I’ve been without work and I’ve been finding it hard. Most people would probably love to have time off from a 9-5 but I’ve never done it before. Pretty much since my days at uni, I’ve always had a job of some sort. I’m a person who relies on routine and organisation and having neither of them is driving me a bit loopy. I’m lucky that I’ve got some savings so I’m not panicking yet but it’s just weird not having work. I’m looking as best I can but low self-esteem can really sneak in there and deter you from applying for things and make you doubt your chances.
I’m a bit lost really. I don’t know how to function without deadlines and a stream of orders and projects to deal with. I’m also a natural worrier and I’m already freaking out quietly to myself that I’ll be unemployed forever. How people that are freelancers cope is a mystery to me! I suppose working for myself would be perfect for me because I could function organising myself and getting stuff done – but doing what is a whole other question.
I’m trying to scramble my brain with ideas but it just feels like I’m chasing my own tail.
Am I being an over-worrier or just rational?
Updates to follow with either a selection of desperation or ‘I’ve got a job’ delight …
SIDE NOTE: The cool phone cover in the main photo is new and comes from Sighh Designs. Amazing designs and so quirky!